please.....

my last posts....

i dunno u'll ever come to see one day or not..
but still i post...
coz this can reduce the pain at least a little..

Memories will kill me....
and u....

now is ur birthday night n....
happy birthday........

salam...tonight is ur birthday.......
n i am not there with u anymore.......
i wish i could b....
to spend all night togethr...
like always...
talk n share feelings n enjoy...but....:"(
i dunno how u r but it is hurting me alot...
nobody can understand...
nobody..
happy birthday... :") 

لحظه های بی تو بودن....
میگذره....
اما به سختی.....................

how much i am calling you still it says.... :-&
where are youuuuuu i am mssging you everywhere its possible but you are not replying anywhere where are youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.....
i am missing you like hellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll plzzzzzzzzzzz reply me where are youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
this is killing me from inside my love plzzzz forgive me :"((
my heart is searching for you like crazies :"(

I MISS YOU :"((

i came alittle talk here but i thought why...for whom...i don't think so u open it again...
so just i want to say onething u said me i wanted always to leave u...
but i never left u n i dunno how u say like this....i have answer for all the things to say but not anymore coz now has no use
anyway i really didn't know n even i  wouldn't imagine oneday u give up n say like that n talk in that way to me...but now i am happy coz i understood those things u were saying that "whtever happen i will be there...i will die without u....i can't think about s.o else n so many other sweet lies which i was always believing tnx GOD i understood this now coz if i would marry u n know then i think...
u know now is too hard for me to trust anyone but i am sure i will find my TRUE LOVE who mean wht he says...

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خودت خواستی که من مجبور باشم   برم جایی که از تو دور باشم

تو پای منو از قلبت بریدی  خودت خواستی که من اینجور باشم

خودت خواستی که احساسم بشه سرد   خودت خواستی نمیشه کاریم کرد

میدیدم دارم از چشمات میفتم     مدارا کردمو چیزی نگفتم

برام بودن تو بازی نبودو   به این بازی دلم رازی نبودو

از اول آخرش رو میدونستم    تو تونستی ولی من نتونستم

برات بودن من کافی نبودو  حقیقت اینکه میبافی نبودو

دارم دق میکنم از درد دوری    میخوام مثل توشم اما چجوری؟؟

یه مدت می خوام ول کنم زندگی رو،.... بذارم کنار عشقو دیوونگی رو،.... چشامو رو اونی که می خوام ببندم،.... یه مدت با هیچی،... با هیچکی نخندم؛... یه مدت می خوام لنگ چیزی نباشم،... هراسون و دلتنگ چیزی نباشم؛... بترسن همه آدما از منی که، قراره یه مدت بشم یکی دیگی؛..... یه کم فرصت و استراحت می خوام،... یه شب خواب شیرین و راحت می خوام،... می خوام بچه شم باز تو این سن و سال،.. یه مدت جدا شم از این حس و حال؛